Hi! I am Lana :)
The internet told me that fundraising for myself is lame, and honestly my ego 100% agrees. However, my soul is learning how to ask for help when I need it.
So, here I am humbly asking for help from the collective. My stable foundation was wrongfully destroyed, so now I have to stand up for myself in order to rebuild it. Every donation I receive will be going towards personal expenses and bills that will help me navigate the unknown up ahead. You'll find more about my story below. If you feel it is aligned for you to channel your generosity in my direction... THANK YOU. In a world filled with people who need help it is not lost on me the blessing that your generosity is.
Gratitude,
Lana
A piece of my story:
Over the last handful of years my life got flipped upside down in some of the most unimaginable ways. Honestly, if a stranger told me my own story I would have a very difficult time believing them. It has been nothing short of a spiritual battle through some of the darkest energetics our world has to offer. I developed an exceptional amount of strength, but it was a nightmare that I am still processing through. I was unable to put the severity of these experiences into words until recently.
Did I navigate it all perfectly? No. However, I did the best I knew how to do with an exceptionally tough deck of cards.
It started off with a spiritual awakening that inspired me to want to help others. I was navigating heartbreak, but decided to channel my pain into purpose by focusing on a new career path. Suddenly, my path was filled with unexplainable darkness that has led to criminal investigations to figure out what the heck all that was. I can now look back and see that my path became unbelievably difficult because I was being targeted in a variety of ways. Now pair that with experiencing severe relational abuse, discovering sexual abuse trauma, severe childhood trauma, and both of my beautiful dogs passing away... it's safe to say that the healing journey I was on had me living in a new kind of survival mode for years. I did not feel safe to be around human beings for a significant amount of time, and I am still working through CPTSD from all of this.
I did not understand what was happening in my life, but through all of this I stayed obedient to my soul path and whatever it was teaching me.
I can look back now and acknowledge that I felt completely unsafe not only because of my personal life, but also within the United States. Seeing a live streamed Genocide in Palestine mobilized me to seek community with people that I felt safe with. I wanted to move to Puerto Rico. I fell in love with the culture and people. Their community helped me to better see the impacts of colonialism, and colonization. I was so heartbroken seeing how my country of origin (the US) has treated their community. They recommended I go to Hawaii - so I did. What I saw and learned there was even worse. Then I saw similarities happening in Downtown Los Angeles at what they call "skid row". It became clear to me that the system is broken and it is negatively impacting all of us - not just the islands that I love. I grieved over how many years I had been part of the problem and then re-committed to using my privilege for good.
It wasn't all bad though! The chaos and instability forced me WAY outside of my comfort zone. I found internal stability in devoting myself to being in service to the collective and all I was learning along that path. I started a Youtube channel, documented parts of my journey, provided donation based spiritual coaching sessions, did energy updates to help others navigate their own paths, and provided grounded clarity regarding collective energetics for those with discernment enough to recognize my frequency. I was also able to support the evolutionary process of a variety of high profile individuals within the United States as they broke down their own barriers to love in order to be able to serve the collective from a higher frequency. If they choose to, of course.
I am not a perfect person. I make mistakes. However, my life experiences have shown me what it feels like to not have support. I know what it feels like to be abused. I know what it feels like to be oppressed. I know what it feels like to have no one believe in you. Unfortunately, that has been my experience. And boy oh boy do I know about darkness. I am still learning the balance between loving myself and loving others. However, I will never regret the choices I made over the last few years. I view them as being on the right side of history. I followed my path everywhere it took me. I connected with incredible people. I travelled to incredible places. I learned so much and it all made me a better person. It healed my heart in so many ways. It showed me good human beings who see the world in a similar way to how I do exist. However, it also showed me a lot about the shadows within our collective.
So here I am after a complex journey through light and dark. I spent well over $500,000 in order to navigate my path over these last handful of years. To some that is not a lot of money, but it was all I had. And I worked for every one of those dollars. I sold my home (+ belongings) and can see that I was so deeply traumatized that the thing I looked forward to the most was getting to a location that felt safe to me. Still is actually. All of this obviously impacted my ability to generate an income, so now I do not qualify to rent a place to live. I was living out of hotels prior to running out of money. My most recent options were to go into a women's shelter or pray a loved one would help me. I am blessed that someone who cares about me stepped up to help me in the ways that they could, but not everyone is that privileged.
Once my life balances back out a bit I look forward to being able to share more of what I learned over these last handful of years. For now, I am focused on standing up for myself and ensuring the scales are properly rebalanced in my life.
For now, I gotta take my own advice and put my own oxygen mask on first. :)
