Title: Always With Me — A Survivor, Her Dog, and a Mission Born From the Fire
I don’t even know how to begin this without breaking.
But maybe that’s where truth starts.
I am a lifelong Christian. Not perfect. Not untouched by darkness. But I have clung to Jesus through things I would not wish on my worst enemy.
Recently, by the grace of God alone, I was freed from a 25-year addiction to methamphetamine. That freedom did not come quietly—it came through terror, through loss, and through a desperate escape from a violent abuser. I fled for my life with nothing but faith… and my dog, Jell-O.
Leaving wasn’t a single decision. It was a thousand acts of faith stacked on top of each other.
Before I escaped, Jell-O and I spent over 14 hours locked in a freezing parkade. Alone. Afraid. With nowhere to go. After that, I walked through a blizzard, begging strangers just to use a phone.
That’s what survival looked like.
God met me there—not in comfort, but in endurance. Through the kindness of Christian strangers, I kept moving forward. I had to return briefly to my family, which placed immense strain on already fragile relationships. Then, in another act of faith, I fled again to an Airbnb—the only place I could find that would allow me to keep Jell-O with me.
But I ran out of money.
And still, I kept going.
Because giving up was never an option.
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Jell-O Is Not Just a Dog
Jell-O is the reason I am still here.
Four years ago, the man I loved—deeply broken and tormented—died in my arms. In his final moments, he said I brought him back to God. And then he left me… with her.
She was just a puppy.
But she became my anchor.
When I couldn’t get out of bed, she made me stand. When I felt nothing, she gave me something to love. Through her, I began to understand God’s unconditional love in a way I never had before.
She didn’t just save my life—God used her to rebuild it.
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Where I Am Now
Christians have helped me begin again. I am in a program that is helping cover rent and protect me as I rebuild my life. I even made the difficult decision to place Jell-O in safekeeping temporarily—a program for survivors of abuse—so I could stabilize.
im happy to announce and cannot express my gratitude to those who have since donated to help me get care for her After being spayed while in care—she was experiencing extreme complications could barely walk as systemic inflammation ravaged her body and I was falling into despair watching her suffer however God is good and allll my love to the kind souls who donated I have been able to afford the supplements and veterinary care she is slowly reclaiming the vitality and healing of her former self and I can now focus fully on the building blocks of a ministry that will help other women who are still in the position our awesome loving God brought me and Jello out of !!!
so thank you again from the bottom of my heart and jellos!! Truly you’re helping more than just me and her! Because….
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This Is Bigger Than Me
My heart has always been for the broken.
Even when I had nothing, I gave what I could to the homeless—because I see them. I know them. I have been them in so many ways.
And through everything I’ve survived, God has placed a calling on my life:
To write a book that reaches those trapped in cycles of pain, addiction, and backsliding—and leads them back to hope in Jesus Christ.
And what I want to build is something called “Always With Me.”
A mission born from this exact pain.
Because over 50% of women delay leaving abusive situations because of their pets. Sometimes… it costs them their lives.
No one should have to choose between safety and the one living being that gives them the strength to survive.
“Always With Me” will be a nonprofit that ensures survivors never have to make that choice again.
Because that’s what Christ has been to me.
Always with me.
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Why I’m Asking for Help
Right now, I am at a breaking point.
I need help with some seed funding for:
- Legal and administrative costs to begin registering “Always With Me” as a nonprofit
- The ability to continue writing and to get hire an editor and publisher for my book and sharing this message of hope
-also I need to pay some residual fines to restore my licence to begin implementing rescue transportation for women fleeing violence with their companion animals as the first leg of always with me . As safe transportation can save lives. And I hope to bring many women safely home to Christ to learn as the name of the ministry states that He has been “Always with me “
I have fought so hard to get here.
I have walked through fire and didn’t let it consume me.
But I cannot do this part alone.
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If You Feel Led
If my story has moved you—if you believe in redemption, in second chances, in the God who rescues and restores—I am asking you to stand with me.
Not just for me.
For Jell-O.
For every woman who is still trapped because she cannot leave her pet behind.
For the mission God is building out of this pain.
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“The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 (KJV)
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Thank you for seeing me.
Thank you for hearing this.
And thank you, from the deepest place in my heart, for helping me keep going.
— Always With Me
