I'm doing this because I know I was put here on Earth to accomplish a lot of things and I'm so far behind right now that I don't know if I have enough life left in me to catch up but I want to give it my best shot I want to be the dad that I've always wanted to be the dad that my kids deserve I want to be the husband and my wife deserves and I want to be the man that God created me to be hey I'm I'm held back by these chains and slavery that my disease gave me I want to be free free from the medically assisted treatment free from every substance I want to be completely clear-headed because when I do that once I get there I know I'll be able to change the world I'll be able to move mountains there's no limit to what I can do once I get rid of this disease I have I've been fighting with it in my whole life I'm 49 and I started when I was 14 and it's been a struggle but they got this new treatment center that are in this new treatment that takes it away makes it makes it takes the obsession away you don't think about it anymore you're actually able to work on things that cause you to start in the first place which is what I need