Hello Wonderful Humans, I dont want to begin with a sob, I'm such a victim role, because I am not. I do want to start by saying that I am truly grateful for the way events have unfolded in my life. Events I thought I'd never mentally or emotionally survive. I have three children with a heart of gold and still, I don't know what I did to deserve them. I did have a plan for my life, it was on track, and at the time I thought I couldn't be happier.  Well, the rug was pulled straight from under me and at the time I fell into a pit of despair and agonizing pain. I'm so glad that I was able to feel those feelings. These were feelings I never knew existed. These feelings were the beginning of me becoming my authentic self. I look back on that girl who thought she was so happy and laugh. Thought I'm still struggling, I made a promise to myself. I want to show my children the true meaning of perseverance. I want to stop renting rooms and give them a house of our own. I want to show my only daughter that when we need to be tough and strong, we are capable of anything. Selfishly, I would also love to stop cleaning houses. I want to go to school to be a UX Designer. I haven't been able to save anything being that there is no extra funds after getting kids their wants and needs. My son told me to not get him anything for his birthday and use it toward school. He knows how much I want this, he is my golden child, I sometimes wish I could give him the world. He plays piano beautifully, self taught, I will one day get him a baby grand. That's why I need to get my certification so I can finally have a real job with health insurance and a 401k. Sorry if I rambled and I am sincere in my request. Thank you for reading.