Please consider helping support me during this incredibly difficult season of my life. I was injured for multiple years as I slowly came off a prescribed medication that induced a traumatic brain injury. An injury that lead into a medication induced suicide attempt. I'm making the total goal for a years rent and some fees for grocery delivery and toiletries, basic needs.  My rent is 700 which is rather expensive for what I received but I'm thankful I have a place to stay. The reason I'm making the goal for a year is I've been at this for the better part of 3 years and realize it's taking a lot longer than I thought it would for not only total healing but also to get back on SSDI.  Here's a link to my YouTube account where you can learn more. 

https://youtu.be/AX8eQ0XVR_Y?si=ADrcHFbykztPubYb

List of all the nervous system dysfunction symptoms ive experienced over 3+ years. Nearly everday during this tapering period i experienced something . There was never a day in over 3 years i didnt feel okay in my body. There were many more symptoms ive experienced, ones I cant even put into words. I never had these prior to being prescribed benzodiazpines. I finished my taper 3 years ago and most have healed praise God.  

Phsycial symptoms-

Severe weakneess

Fatigue 

Muscular rigidity 

Burning in my nerves 

Electric currents shooting down nerve pathways

Hypersensitive skin, shower droplets felt like jagged glass

Felt like i was breathing artic frigid air

Blurred and double vision

Stroke like symptoms (my pelfic floor, inner thighs, abdominal wall would go into a flaccid muscle tone state)

Biggest injury was flaccid paralysis to my entire left side of my body, which i still have 3 years later, though its better. My entire left side went limp, burned deeply as if i had a stroke

Electric currents all over my skin. Numbness all over my skin

Waves of acid like pain radiating out of my spine 

Burning spine

Seizure like jerking 

Went 3.5 months only sleeping 1 to 2 hours a night, every night

Horrific insomnia

Nerve pain just about everywhere 

Tinnitus (ringing in the ears)

Head wobble, balance issues

Severe bodily agitation/ akathisia

Dry eyes and sinuses 

Autoimmune issues that came out of nowhere like lupus 

Thyroid issues

Blood pressure swings

Heart rate swings 

Breathing issues 

Mental and psychological-

Panic attacks

Severe sustained long lasting anxiety levels 

Deep chemcial like depression

Deep fear for no reason 

Paranoia 

Phobias like fearful of being alone and leaving the house 

Strange intrusive thoughts

Amnesia 

Memory loss

Confusion

Cognition issues (hard to do even of the easiest tasks)

Crying hysterically for no reason 

Not able to feel any emotion at all

Depresonalization (feelings like i was detached from my body)

Derealization (feelings like everything was in 2d)

Feelings of being behind a wall of thick glass

Aphasia 

Suicidal thoughts 

Unfortunately all of this took a huge toll on me as it went on and on for over 3 plus years. At the end of my taper from prescribed Valium, I i became incredibly suicidal for months. Without proper support I caved one day and nearly killed myself as much as i hate to say it. I walked and walked all day long in the heat of Arizona in peak summer. Almost died and I should have. All of my muslce tissues is severly damaged from dehydration. My internal organs were damaged as well, mostly my GI tract. I was upset at God for letting me butcher myself, mad at myself for giving up, mad at others for treating me so poorly when i needed love and encouragement the most. God kept me alive however. Its been 3.5 years since the incident and ive been recovering since then, laying in bed everyday waiting on the Lord to complete this healing. In that time ive lost all of my possesions, the ability to see my daughter often and my income. Ive made progess, my balance is much better and im able to stand for longer periods of time without giving out in exhaustion.  

Ive ran into some issues however, my ssdi was not renewed last July and ive been living off the generosity of others. Which im incredibly thankful for. I reapplied for ssdi income and im going through the process. Im asking, if you are able to help support me until a decsion is made,  I'd be very grateful. I linked my fundraiser down below. Please consider helping a brother in Christ recover, one who has been through a living hell. Thank you all. Other ways to help are paypal and venmo, which actually are easier and faster for me. 

Paypal: @ShawnRichberger803

Venmo: Woodster2k

Shawn Richberger 

https://www.benzoinfo.com/benzodiazepines/

https://youtu.be/dOkKEnvJfAM?si=omij-CUvupE6Bx-3