Disabled Army Veteran Sgt Padilla Joseph and Family

Well, when it rains it pours...and..

My car is down again, this time it's the compressor, condenser,  expansion valve both front and back and....... the econ bag that goes on the compressor......

I'm praying for a break!!! I have been told that it's going could cost me between $26-2800 bucks.... 

The lord knows I don't have that, and there's no way for me to just pull it from my pocket either.... I'm praying for a miracle. I can't go to work, I can't do anything with out my car.... 

Please help me pray for a miracle. 

This week has been rough to say the least! Two of my children have been home, one home with insomnia, and the other home with a serious case of IBS.

On Thursday, February 23, was Jose's second year anniversary of his arrest. It was a very hard day for the boys and I. 

Tonight is my oldest military ball! He looks so sharp, but he wishes his dad was here to see him stand here in his uniform. 

Ok, I need your help!

The boys and I haven't seen Jose for 24 months..... We were suppose to go to Washington DC, February 17, 2023... to see him... but the warden has once again decide to toy with our J6ers. Instead of allowing the normal family of 5 in she has decided to close the doors and only allow in 3 at a time as of two weeks ago... claiming "safety" for all involved.... 

I need your help... get the word out there that Warden Landerkin has closed the doors on families. Making them choose between children who has not seen their family members in years! She's a nightmare! 

I know I'm not very good at keep everyone updated on our family and I apologize. 

Once again, I am forever grateful for Patriot Freedom Project who helped us through Christmas last year. Though it was small, we're we grateful for being able to be together as a family and opening gift provided by patriot Mail project. We had a little snow and the kids had a blast.

January has passed with little action OTHER then my oldest so getting his Driver's license........ heaven help me....another 17yr on the road.. and behind MY wheel... 

February has come and other then doctors apps, Nero apps, school meetings, im still working two jobs and  I have added volunteering at my church as the library aid......

My boys have four dances coming up this month for school and I think they each have girlfriends their not telling me about...

My oldest is excited to go to his girlfriends dance this weekend and she'll be going to his military ball with him soon. While, my youngest two have their dance....

I'm still struggling to write a letter to the judge, it strange..... you love a man for 20 years, been married for 17... almost 18...  and when you have to sit down and tell one man what's on your heart.....your mind goes blank.  It's like you want to tell him that the man his about to throw in prison is your other half, is your world. But he won't understand that because all he sees is the bad.. He doesn't know that this mans heart is pure American. That he almost gave his life for Our County not once but a few times. 

I am a broken women, this separation, this torment has crushed me. I don't understand how a group of people can attack, destroy,  injure, burn and even kill and get away with.... and they call it "fair" or "their rights", while another group of people gather and are peaceful until provoked and roused, then called wrong for defending and standing up for their right as individuals.  And yet they are the ones that go to jail...

Yes, I don't understand...

I'm sorry..... I guess I'm never to understand the  bs of politics... but I know right from wrong... and this is wrong....

Sorry, life's been crazy...

Between cars not wanting to work, kids having issues at school, all of us catching the stomach bug, someone stealing my credit card number and hacking our bank account (which was soooooooo much fun).... we have been going 

I'm gonna brag on my oldest 🤪 for a second!!! One proud momma! Ok, get in the mind set.......

Beeper go off, my son checks his phone; "MOM!!"",we got to go!!"  This kid grabbed his gear and me in the car in less then 5 min.... Ready to head to his second fire 🔥/ rescue response just down the road! We were the second one on scene. As we pulled on scene he quickly jumped into action, spoke to the officer and started directing traffic till his chief arrived moment later and took control of the situation. When later, his chief said he did great!! 

Halloween weekend the kids were so happy, they each had their own costumes, my youngest my was "astronaut", my middle son was a "Templar Knight," and my oldest son went as a "The Prince of Darkness". Went to fall festivals, and blockparties where not only did the kids get a bag of junk food, the also got lots of pictures. The one moment that brought down the weekend was the group of men dressed in orange jumpsuits.. my youngest started crying...

This last weekend my boys went on a church camping 🏕 trip and I had the house to myself... well till I had to work.... I had a hard time... I was alone in the house... and I had mixed feelings... I was grateful for a break... but I missed them so much and I missed my husband even more..

I'm still working two jobs, one of my boss did a break away room which was so much fun.. there is something about being put in rooms with 5 people you work and you have to find clues to get out, to find out just how awesome they are... and what kinda freak they can be, to what they know.... 😆🤣😂

My heart is still breaking, everyday my heart breaks. I miss my husband. I ache to hear him say he's homesick, and can't wait to get home. But, on a odd note he has this running joke about want a rhino... I once accidentally sent him a kids book about rhino and something or other and ever since he asked for a rhino..lol

Maybe when he gets out I'll get him a little stuffed animal rhino.....

Today has been hard,  I have been sick for awhile and I have missed work. I have seen specialist which were jokes, and I'm waiting on hour long scans for my chest and other things. I feel like someone has taken a pressure cuff and placed it all over my body. I have swelling in my feet, and tightness in my chest that just never goes away.... All I want to do is cry right now... 

Last night I had such horrible nightmares. Nightmares that woke me up in a cold sweat and had wishing for Jose to be laying beside me...and yet I had to wait to hear his voice to put calm back in my heart. 

I feel so broken, with out my other half. This is not right, taking a good man away from his family. Yes, I've seen the news articles, the videos, people calling his names and all the hate mail I receive on his behalf claiming we deserve this...

When did this world change from right and wrong? When did it become right to go after people who just believed differently then you? When did the the world decide to attack people who want something better then then nonsense we have to deal with? And when did it become ok for this government to attack its own people?

Well here we go again.......

This time I'm getting a double whammy.. not only is this weekend Father's Day,  but it's also Jose and my 17th Wedding Anniversary...

My heart is aching and I have to work this weekend.. when all I want to do is cry. I feel like everything is crashing in around me... and all I want is Jose home. 

Another birthday without the love of my life...  it's sad, I should be use to the distance, and not having Jose here by now, but my heart still aches... I still cry at night knowing I'm without him.  

My oldest and I are going to work for fathers day, just to keep our minds off the day... At least I hope it will keep my mind off Jose... the longer he's gone the harder it gets... the boys miss him so much.. my youngest night terrors have gotten bad and he has gotten to the point where he calls out for me at night..

I need my Jose home... please pray he comes home soon...

I've met some amazing people this past weekend. The boys and I went to a church that we were invited to and it was incredible.  Pastor Duncan's message was touching, and his congregation was so welcoming.  

I have found out recently that I may have a autoimmune disease and I am being sent to a specialist to specify which one and how to manage it...  I am nervous and a tad scared as this is yet another thing on my already full plate. 

My boys have passed their grades, and are moving on to the next!! It seems just like yesterday that Jose and I were taking them to kindergarten... now I'm dealing with high-school and middle school!!

Easter, it physically hurt to think about doing anything for Easter..... So the boys and I decided to work through it... My oldest and I went to work and my two youngest went to my my mom's and did yard work with her... that she's been begging to have done... and when we got home we had a bonfire and burned all the wood and sticks the kids collected.... it was great. 

It's been over a year since we've seen Jose, he got his first hair cut two weekends ago after not having on in over a year and some months!! And on the 8th the judge said he had 60 days to go through his discovery and then he rather has to take a plea or go to court..... 

I'm not sure how I feel about any of this.... a plea... or going to court.... but I have to believe that even though my faith isn't the strongest somewhere up there God has to be protecting my family.....

Easter, it physically hurt to think about doing anything for Easter..... So the boys and I decided to work through it... My oldest and I went to work and my two youngest went to my my mom's and did yard work with her... that she's been begging to have done... and when we got home we had a bonfire and burned all the wood and sticks the kids collected.... it was great. 

It's been over a year since we've seen Jose, he got his first hair cut two weekends ago after not having on in over a year and some months!! And on the 8th the judge said he had 60 days to go through his discovery and then he rather has to take a plea or go to court..... 

I'm not sure how I feel about any of this.... a plea... or going to court.... but I have to believe that even though my faith isn't the strongest somewhere up there God has to be protecting my family.....

Well, trying to get an idea what to do for my youngest boys birthday this month.. One is into farming simulator and space and the other son I have no clue what he would like... It\'s hard planning a party when my boys don\'t have a lot friends... People are still keeping their distance,  and it\'s a shame for my boys...

This month has tested every limit I have... between cars to kids... you name its most likely happened... my car needs breaks bad and the engine light keeps coming on... my youngest is getting involved with the wrong kids at school.... but he only has 3 other boys in his class to hang out with.... Jose calls daily when he can and I miss him and he tries to help from where he is.... but I feel like one big mess....  now add gas prices into this wonderful calamity of my life at the moment..... yes the rambling of a mad women........

Today has been long as it is...... I\'ve been able to talk to Jose twice today and it\'s been really nice...

So, in other news.... my oldest knee.. he brusied his knee and tenden, but doesn\'t need crutches any longer according to the specialist. He will need a knee brace as needed for support.. but he\'s ok...

Today has been hard... My heart is breaking even more then usual. Today is the day Jose was arrested one year ago. I can\'t focus on anything and all I want to do is cry now....

My boys are missing their dad a lot today too..  My oldest has already had his melt down, and my middle son is in the quiet phase and my youngest is all in the needing mom mode. 

So, with other news..

My oldest popped his knee out and now we have to go to a specialist for them to look at it. Now he has to use crutches... Unfortunately,  he may be out if track for the rest of the semester...  

Valentines day was hard without Jose... here I am working where all these couples come in and enjoy spending time with each other.... and I have to take pictures of these happy couples as part of the job for just Valentines.... My heart hurts without my other half....

My boys tried to make the day special by spending time with me watching movies and eating junk food!

Jose, was able to call a few times and for the first time in awhile I could hear and understand everything he said!!! I miss him so much... This political prisoner nonsense is really frustrating, I want him home!!!!

All the joys of being an adult..... This morning my car decided it needed a jump..... Got to work feeling horrible.. ended up leaving work early.... to headed home only to have my car decide to throw a electrical fit on me and die..... so now I\'m sitting on the side of the road with a bill of $186 and a 55 min wait on a tow truck..... ahh the joys of adulthood.......