1,265 Days🤬BUT..

162 Days at the halfway house, BUT..

20 days of being home, w/ a monitor🙏🏻

Celebrated our Baby Girl last weekend! 

So nice to have my husband to help with everything & be present for this life event💙

So great to see so many friends & family!

Been awhile since I updated!

1,250 Days🤬…..

147 closer to home……BUT…..

5 days of sleeping at home, with his monitor! FINALLY💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

We’ve celebrated our kiddos birthdays, we’ve had our youngest graduate and so many more moments that Douglas has NOT had to miss! We are trying to get back to some kind of normalcy! 

Douglas had missed 3+ years of life events we can’t get back, like the graduation of our middle kiddo in 2022! It feels to great to have him home, home, although still can’t do a whole lot yet! 

Next weekend we have our girls big party! 

Thank you all for following our story and I will try to continue to update more often! 

God Bless

1,117 draining days we’ve been going through this nightmare🤬

14 days I’ve been blessed to have him back, close to home! 

He’s working on finding a job! His union’s being “a$&holes” so he’s fighting that right now! 

The biggest hold up is needing to get him a cheap, reliable car to be able to drive himself to work! Once he’s working, he’ll be able to come home for furloughs on the weekends! AND……he’ll be able to give me those checks so I’m not drowning anymore😁💙

We are forever grateful for all of you! If you are willing and able to donate, we are saving for a cheap car! 

Thank you and God Bless

1,109 days🤬

For those who don’t know yet, I traveled to Texas Monday (1/15/24), stayed the night, picked this guy up and brought him to his halfway house that night😁💙(1/16/24

Still wish it was home, but it’s a huge blessing and an improvement all together! He’s close to home and I was able to take him some things to him! Took Harley once as well!

He can have his phone for 1/2 hour/day, so if you don’t hear from him yet, it’s because I’m being selfish and FaceTiming him😁

Keep those positive vibes and prayers coming our way please and thank you! It’s going to be an adjustment for all, but together, we got this💕

Happy Tuesday and Happy Holidays! We are getting closer to Douglas coming home! Can’t come fast enough. Hopefully the last holidays without him home with us! Thought I’d share the pic from when our youngest went to see her dad the beginning of November💙🩷

Haven’t updated in awhile! Here’s what’s been happening in our lives💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

11/14

Day 1,040 of my husband being held hostage🤬Sharing my fundraiser page and asking for any help that anyone can offer! 1:) our baby (17) graduates this year(2024) and cap and gown and senior pics are due💕🎓 2:) Our Harley has his surgery on 11/24 and it’s gonna be about $1000🙄 3:) Just because, thought I’d share my memory from 5 years ago! Same thing only he’s not missing due to working all the time🤬💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

11/12

1,038 days🤬🤬Always go into a funk after seeing him! Seriously worked all week & have been in bed since Friday afternoon! It’s now Sunday! I have to keep hope & faith! God is good! We WILL be reunited, until then, I’ll remain strong & will LOVE him through it💙🙏🏻

11/10

Day 1,036 of my husband being held hostage🤬 some “goodish” news to share💕I’m really trying not to get my hopes up, BUT…..probation from Iowa contacted me to do our home visit next week! He said Douglas is set to be released in January to a halfway house! already on a waiting list for a bed, and…..wait for it, there is one in our home town too😍😍and…….a possibility that if no beds are available, he can do home confinement😍😍He did say after 60 days he’ll have to give an “update” report and he may have to go to DC! Again, thank you to EVERYONE who has helped this journey that much more doable! Whether it be, emotionally, spiritually, financially, etc! EVERYONE I’ve come to know over the last 3 years, helped me/us survive! Most might not even realize what it’s really meant to us! My husband has his own story, and it’s just a matter of time until he’ll be the one telling it! I can’t even begin to imagine what he’s been through the last 3 years, I know what I know, but I also know, that I really don’t know💔

God Bless💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

11/6

1.032 days they’ve kept my husband from our family🤬Blessed to have our 3 month/2 day visit Sat and Sun! 

1646.1 miles..$100’s in gas

3 nights/hotel…more $100’s, 

First hug for our baby(17) from her dad in over 2 years…PRICELESS💕

Our healing has begun💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

11/5

Day 1,031 of my husband being held hostage! One year ago⬇️⬇️41 days later, he was sentenced to 5 years! Of course, he wasn’t moved closer to home! Day #2 visit in 2 hours! Day#1 went fantastic! Our youngest will go see her dad today! First time in over 2 years🩷

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Day 1,026 & not going anywhere! Forever & Always💙♾️💜

If I got locked away

And we lost it all today

Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

If I showed you my flaws

If I couldn't be strong

Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

128

1,024 DAYS🤬Blessed to hear patriots sing while on the phone w/ my husband during his long stay in the DC Gulag in 21/226 days & I get to hug, kiss & sit with him in the flesh💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 Some still haven’t seen their “person” nearly 3 years later💔

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1,022 days held hostage today for my husband💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸Trial over a year ago and sentencing almost a year ago and his appeals lawyer has done nothing for him🤬Someone feel free to pick up his case pro-bono💕

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Day 1,021 of my husband held against his will🤬💔His appeals lawyer is a complete joke, but when you have to decide on keeping your home or hiring a decent lawyer, you go with a PD and hope for the best in this horrible nightmare💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

#ijustwantmyhusbandback

1,026 days of this hostage situation & still NOTHING🤬

So excited to see my husband Saturday, not too excited for the 12 hour drive there🙄

Sharing again if anyone would like to help with this trip! Thank you all for the continued love and prayers💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Day 1,016 of the hostage situation with my husband🤬 I’ve had his shirt he mailed home on my pillow for nearly 3 months now! With all hope and prayers, he will be home in the next 4-6 months💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

A few updates from the month…..

1123…….1005 days my husband has been a political prisoner💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Checked the BOP website & his release date has changed again, now 3/29/25, started at 6/27/25! Taking donations to pay for a warranty for my new, USED car! They want $3000, which is worth it but can’t afford to add it!

111/23……Day 1006 w/out my husband🥹

After many legit tears & stress, I DID IT!I’m a proud owner of this beautiful new lady(2019) Now to drive her & pick her name😊May have to work more hours and now have a car payment🤬, but you know what….it’s fine, I’m fine, everything is FINE💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

113/23……Day 1008🤬💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

HORRIBLE rheumatoid flare😩Yesterday woke up with a sore arm/shoulder. By last night, I was completely & utterly miserable! No sleep, every slight twinge, had me up right & crying!Hoping with some steroids & heating pad, it will pass sooner, rather than later!

116/23……Day 1,011🤬

Horrible RA flare!Beautiful views🌅✈️Memories🥹just football, but Sundays aren’t the same w/out Douglas!19 days & I’ll be giving my husband the biggest hug again! Our youngest(17) plans to go been over 2 years & she’s ready! Donations being accepted for our trip💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

AMEN💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 DAY 1,011🤬

Our 3rd visit since he’s been in Texas since late Jan/23!! March, May, August and in almost 18 days, November💕 He’s looked a little better every time🙏🏻minus his hair is gone🤔Hang in there, they/we got this💙💪🏻Love ya💕Hugs💕

117/23…….Day 1,012 of my husband being held against his will🤬Horrific story #1,012 from prison!!Douglas found a 1-3 inch spider leg 🕷️in his dinner last night! He’s not certain if he ate the rest or not🤮What in the complete , I would die, legit🕷️🤮 #ijustwantmyhusbandback

118/23…….Day 1,013 of my husband being held hostage, my opinion! 17 days and I’ll be seeing my husbands handsome face and getting the biggest hug! If anyone is able to help with getting us there, we’d be forever grateful💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

119/23…..DAY ONE THOUSAND AND FOURTEEN….🤬🤬TOO FREAKING MANY🤬🤬…THAT IS ALL🤬🤬And this⬇️⬇️this is why I need my “person” back🤬🤬 #Ijustwantmyhusbandback💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

1223…….1,015 days my husband’s been held hostage🤬Had a car accident 3/2/23! Had left hand surgery on 6/323! Did PT & 3 injections in my L4-L5, w/ no relief! Had my F/U w/ my spine surgeon & I need to decide when to do surgery but 3 months off work🤔#ijustwantmyhusbandback💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Today, 1000 DAYS Douglas has been detained, we celebrate our 22nd wedding anniversary and 27th year of being together! This is our 3rd apart💔⬇️This was our first anniversary (2021)w/ Douglas being held hostage! It was a big one too & I still don’t know how he did it💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 Love you to FOREVER Douglas💙 can’t wait to have you home and to finish our FOREVER together!!!

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Grrrrrr….Trying to find a decent car (without my husband)right now & good price is almost impossible! If anyone would like to pitch in, I would let you and would be forever grateful! I have a good down payment from my totaled vehicle, but still having to finance some too🤬

P.S. updated picture from 8/5 & 8/6 FINALLY

Happy Tuesday! 

991 days my husband has been held hostage, in my opinion🤬

Now that we are into Fall, I can say that hopefully by the end of the next season, Winter, my husband will be home🙏🏻🙏🏻

2 of our 3 kiddos were involved in an accident last week, not their fault! Someone ran a red light! They were going to T-bone them, our 17 year old daughters side! Thanks to some quick thinking and awesome driving by our 22 year old son, he was able to make it near a head on collision😳 Everyone is ok, minus our son, who’s continuing to have some left shoulder/collar bone pain! No broken bones on his x-ray! 

My car, on the other hand, may not have survived this one! We will know this week! If not, I’m going to have to chore of trying to find a new car with the money given for the worth of my car🥹

Please continue to say some HUGE prayers for our family! It seems to be one thing after another! God must think I’m a pretty strong badass person, who thinks I can handle it all! I’m definitely ready for a break!

I’m so ready for my husband to be home

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Happy Friday! Today makes 980 days! Thank you so much for everyone who has continued to follow us on this journey! Your love, prayers, and support has been amazing and I wish there were a way to show how grateful we are! We are about 1 1/2 months away from our 2 day visit again:) I’m hoping COVID rules don’t start applying to visits! His unit had a “positive” case so they all are told to mask up and stuff again🤬 My husband has refused so far🙏🏻 but on the other hand, I don’t want this to be any reason for “them” to mess with him and his good time and program🤬 He finally met with his “TEAMS” people and as of right now, he’ll graduate his program in January and the next day go to a halfway house for a month or few💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Please continue to pray for our family and that we are almost at the end of this, well, he’ll at least be back at home💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

I HATE this🤬

966 days it’s been and I just hate it! 

One late night phone call and little explanation, can drive a person insane! Thought about making an irrational, but justifiable decision and popping up to see my husband! 

In the end, we will come out of this stronger than ever! 💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

I don’t understand!!!!  If people don’t agree or don’t like someone or something, it can’t just be they don’t agree! Why all the mean words to each other! I remember being taught, if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all! People believe my husband and others are getting what they deserve, fine, have that opinion but don’t bring that bullshit back to me! Go talk about it with your likeminded people! Any of these people spewing their nonsense don’t know my husband AT ALL! They know what they’ve been told or seen about him, but they don’t KNOW him🤬 

Thank you to all who have been by our sides the last 2 1/2 years! There is something truly powerful going on between good and evil and we all have to just PRAY for the best outcome for ALL💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Had a great 2-day visit with Douglas last weekend💙

Doug’s brother Bill and his wife met us in Texas Friday evening and Bill joined us Saturday for our visit! 

Also, finally went and walked around Dealey Plaza Sunday😊

Thank you Austin for going with me to Texas! Your dad was so happy to see you! 

Douglas finally caved and shaved his head😳The last 2 1/2 years and his bald spot got the be a bigger bald spot🤦🏻‍♀️ He had been telling me for months and months he was just going shave it! I always said no, wasn’t ready! Told him he’d just have to do it and there’d be nothing I could do about it! Well…..he did it🤣🤣🤣🤣 Can’t wait to get the pictures! 

Definitely take some getting used to, but after 2 days, it was already growing on me! 

Love and miss you the MOSTEST Douglas💙

Hope we made your birthday (8/7) a little brighter this year🎁🎂🥳

PS his date went down again😊

To most, this is just an ugly grey T-Shirt…🥰A box came in the mail today w/ some books, letters, & this T-shirt, from my husband! It smells JUST like him, minus no cologne! I miss him so much! Will be putting it on a pillow,for sure! What a GREAT surprise from him🥰

Not weird🤣

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸2 gut punches in one week They “the gov’t” can do whatever they want! They upped the amount we have to pay on his fines/mo, BEFORE he can get commissary! Second, he was told DC claims he’s not eligible for the program he’s been in for months & the year off his sentence🤬

Makes me so mad, so sad and some other words I won’t use here! Why I tried so hard not get my hopes up of an early release! But I started to believe it was a real possibility and now I’m heart broken all over again

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

A new shirt made for my bestie and I! Love them💕💕

PLEASE READ⬇️⬇️⬇️

Wanted EVERYONE to know how thankful WE are for everything ANYONE helped us with these last 2 1/2 years! It hasn’t been just one! It’s been an array of people! I’m not out here just taking, taking, taking and off spending however I want! I’m SURVIVING💪🏻 And I’ve done this with the help of so many! Some I’ve known most of my life, some I just met and some I may never meet💕Douglas was the $$$$ maker! When they took him, they took our families $$$$ I’ve always worked, but it was for our “FUN” and “LIFE” with our kids $$$$ If anyone needs to know for sure who or how I’ve been helped, please reach out, otherwise it’s not something I should have to freely tell! Pretty sure I can get with my bank as well and get records, as I’m not keeping tabs🤬If anyone would like to take care of this debt I’ve acquired too, feel free! 

Last but definitely not least💕

Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts! God Bless you all💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Happy Sunday! I’m alive and doing the best I can over here! Ventured out yesterday for a bit, probably gonna pay for it today, but worth it!

Best part about my weekend, all our kiddos are home under one roof for a moment🙏🏻💙💜💜

Today’s been 900 days, that my husband has been “held hostage” in my OPINION! Never once has any of the days become easier! We have learned to adapt to our new way of life together! 731 days he has left, but hopefully it will be way less than that💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Love you FOREVER Douglas

Well Doug’s 3rd Father’s Day away from his children has come and gone! We can only hope and pray this will be his last! 

Planning the next trip to see him! This time a kid or two or all three are gonna try to make it work to go🙏🏻

Thank you all and God Bless💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

My heart is happy today! Got my picture from our visit last month finally! Doesn’t he look so good! So glad he can exercise and get Vit D😍

God I love and miss this guy so much

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Well, got a late phone call from my husband at 9:45! He was able to get the the phone for the last call of the night! They had been without power in the prison since Sunday🥹

Also, the Birthday card he had made for our daughter arrived💜💔

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Haven’t heard from my husband since Sunday, still an hour and 45 minutes left today, so there is a chance! 

These are the times I dread, the unknowns! Record is 24 days no communication, so I got this! 

This is how I was feeling 2 YEARS ago, after 6 months of this crap💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

This beauty turned 19 today! 3rd Birthday her dad has missed! She had her wisdom teeth out Friday and has been miserable! We made the best of her day! Her older brother was able to make it home. They are ending their night with a movie together! Hopefully this will be the last of missed birthdays for her! We love you FOREVER baby girl💕

872 Days Douglas has been held against his will🤬

Happy Tuesday! Another Holiday has come and gone, it’s the 3rd Memorial Day missed! Next is going to be his 3rd Fathers Day and 3rd 4th of July🥹

It never gets easy! I miss and love him more than I can ever describe to anyone! 

Little rant……I hate how if one or two people in is “unit” decide do do something that they aren’t supposed to, EVERYONE gets punished! I get it, it’s prison, but I’ve never punished all my kids when one did something naughty🤬 End of rant🙄

Have a great day and Gob Bless everyone💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

It’s not easy being the sole provider for 2 1/2 years

My other half was the majority$$

But I’ve done it💪🏻(with a little help😘)

Visitation was basically denied the first 2 years+, I want/need to see him always

24hrs round trip🤬 Do I stay or do I drive🤷🏻‍♀️💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 

4 day weekend🤔

Got my new hat today😊

Figured I’d get a cuter/girly one💕

44, no filters, no makeup, I’ll take it! Not a model by any means🤣but hey, nobody believes I have a 22, 18 and 17 year old💙💜💜 

Even the life we’re living right now can’t age me😊minus the grey hair, thanks Babe

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Just a crazy trip idea!

I have a 4 day weekend and I want to go see my husband, for my one day and try to make it to DC for a Memorial Day Event🇺🇸

This is what it would cost to fly and do both💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

It’s a beautiful Sunday here! Little Leo enjoying his cheap pool from the Dollar Store💙🐕‍🦺💦

Also, Doug had tore down our deck in the fall if 2020 with plans to rebuild one the spring 2021! 

Needless to say, our lives took a different path, for a minute or a kazillion and I’m still waiting for my deck🥹 beautiful days like today, I really miss having one💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 

Some day soon🙏🏻

These guys are so happy to have “Betty” back too! They’ve missed their car rides🐶💙🐕‍🦺💙 2 1/2 months and 5 different rental cars! Finally have my car back after being rear ended🙏🏻

Hope they can make someone smile, I know it does me💕

Home sweet home once again, without my husband💔🥹 

Landed safely Friday morning at 7:52AM in Dallas and it was a shit show from the the start! But I made it home safely this morning about 5:00AMish? My weekend may not have gone as planned, but I’m forever grateful to have amazing people in my life! Thank you Bestie and 2 of her kiddos for coming to my rescue Friday night/Saturday morning, 11 1/2 hours away and getting us all home safely this morning! 

I know it was a hectic weekend for you guys as well, but I’m glad I got to experience it with you guys💜And I have to believe this was the way it was supposed to work out, something about my plans wasn’t right obviously and I wasn’t supposed to be alone in Texas, maybe driving or even flying? 

Absolutely LOVE seeing my husband and actually getting to touch him, smell him, and just enjoy him! Things I will NEVER take for granted again! But absolutely HATE leaving him behind! How does ones heart not break and ugly cry when that clock starts to wind down and you know they are going to tell you it’s time for you to leave and leave him behind! My husband has stayed soooo positive this whole time (he’s had his days) and somehow makes me feel some peace💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 His tight hugs, where i feel the safest, where I just melt into him, is what my heart and soul needed💙💜

How is this our life🤬 

I’m gonna be over here having my pity party for a bit, but I’ll be back! I just need a minute, or ten! 

Prayers that January is here before we know it and everything goes as planned🙏🏻

Made it to Texas✈️ See you in the morning Douglas💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Happy Beautiful Friday! It’s 72 degrees here in the Midwest😎 so gonna take ours boys on a walk before severe thunderstorms arrive in a couple hours! 

814 days he’s been held hostage now! Another work week is complete! Thinking about trying to pick up some extra shifts this weekend, so I can make extra money to be able and drive down to Texas next weekend to see my husband for a 1 day-7hour visit! He can’t have another 2-day-7hours each day, visit until June🙄 it’s been 4 weeks tomorrow since I was there last! Not being allowed visits while being held pre-trial the last 2 years really sucked! So now that I can see him any weekend, if I can go, I’m gonna go💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

It’s been 809 days today, that my husband’s been held hostage🤬🥹

It’s 824 days from today until his “release” date🤬🥹

So one would say, at least we’re half way done🤷🏻‍♀️ But it still sucks and it’s fair🥹

I hope and pray so much that he will be home way before that time🙏🏻💙💔🇺🇸

Happy Saturday! Beautiful sunrise this morning with so much to be thankful for today! 

I’ve been up since 2:45, I’m working some overtime today!

I’m so happy that my husband is finally in his permanent spot, counting down the days, until he gets to come home! But, Doug’s been on lockdown the last 3 weeks pretty much! He’s still working his job in the warehouse, and is supposed to start his programs April 1st! Then he’ll be working towards getting to be moved closer to home (hopefully) to a halfway house in less than a year🙏🏻🙏🏻

Now to try and work as much as possible to get his fines paid off (before he’s released hopefully), keep commissary money in his account, with the help of some fabulous people, to make sure he’s able to get all his “basic needs” items and some “wants” along the way (food, beverages, alarm clock, etc)

I’m also trying to work and save to be able to make the 11 1/2 hours (each way) trip to see my husband as much as possible! Flying is faster, and more feasible, but definitely more expensive, kind of! 

I can’t get a “special 2 day visit” again until June, but even a one day, 7 hour visit, is worth it💙 It’s already been 3 weeks and I want to go hug him again soooooo bad🥹 

Thank you and God Bless everyone who has sent a thoughtful message, letter, prayer, donation, etc! We are eternally grateful for all the love and kindness that has been shown to us these last 2 years+ years, from those we’ve never met💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

💕The Jensens💕

Happy St. Patrick’s Day! I know it’s not a big holiday, but still, another holiday without my husband home🥹

Douglas has started a job in the warehouse at the prison! He’s loving getting some strenuous activity in, as he’s been in solitary confinement for the last 2 years! He was used to throwing huge block/brick around for his job in the union! So good to hear him doing better for the first time in over 2 years!

Trying to plan my next weekend getaway to see his handsome face again. He can’t have a “special 2 day visit” again until beginning of June! So trying to plan a weekend go go down for Saturdays visit! He says not worth the 11 1/2 hour drive both ways for a one day-seven hour visit! I tell him anything is worth seeing his face and giving him huge hugs and kisses again!!

Love you FOREVER Douglas💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Just thought I’d give a little update!

Went and saw Doug this weekend! Drove the 11 1/2 hours! Our middle daughter went with and visited for a little bit too Saturday! She wasn’t liking the “prison” feel!

I Got 7 hours on Saturday and Sunday. 

My husband looks so good! Crazy what the Vit D, working out, a pillow, human contact and just not being in solitary can do for a person! 

He says he is treated great, and I have nothing to worry about, when it comes to his safety🙏🏻

Got to hold his hand, kiss him, hug him and just love on him💙🥹

Still says he can’t sign up for any classes for 6 months, minus his “finance” class🙄🙄

I can just pray for something “great” to happen soon for all of our loved ones💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Now can’t wait to start planning my next trip, overtime here I come🙄

Let the count down to my visit with my husband begin! I can’t wait to give him the biggest kiss and hug! Excited to sit at a table with him and hold his hand💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸 It’s been too long! I’m ready like forever ago! 

Love you Douglas! 

Happy Valentines Day to my number one! I may not get to hug and kiss him today, but he’s always close to my heart! 

Also, my 3rd Birthday today, that I will be celebrating without my husband as well🥹

I love you FOREVER and miss you the MOSTEST Douglas Austin💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Long post, but I thought I’d share💙👋💔🇺🇸

Welp, Doug is now in the his permanent pod! He is in Fort Worth Texas! 

Please pray for him! I’m glad he is getting settled and that he’s not “caged” up anymore, but I absolutely HATE this💔I hate that he’s there, alone. I hate that anyone can think this is ok. I hate that my husband is having to live/experience the “prison life” AND be treated so unfairly/badly too. I hate that he has to “choose a side” and all that entails, while there, and yes, it’s what I thought, and I hate it🤬

I just have to continue to stay strong for my family, have faith and keep hearing my husbands voice telling me, “everything happens for a reason and to hang on, he’ll be home before I know it, and that our best, is yet to come” 

868 days until his release date! I know he’s signing up for whatever he can that will take time off of that! But in the end, the government can do whatever they want, as we all know🤬 so, I say 868 days and when it’s less, it will be a very great, welcomed surprise💙

He says there is about 400 in his unit! He’s on a bunk bed for now, along with about 11-13 other people! He called it the school bus! Where he waits until he gets in a “room” with one other person! 

He’s already been to the library, figured out where to get a haircut, was able to clip his finger and toenails, has a pillow for the first time in 2 years and can’t wait to go outside, which I believe is whenever he wants/can? He’s ready for any kind of freedom! Going from solitary confinement the last 2 years, to now this, I can only imagine! Saddest part, it’s not home🥹

The bonuses, he received the calendars I made him, so that’s awesome they allowed them💕 and I have my first visit scheduled! As long as everything goes ok, I’ll be seeing him soon, but still not soon enough! 

Let’s do this Douglas💙

Doug started his journey closer to home yesterday! As of now, he’s in a “not so good place” in Virginia, but he was able to call, so there’s that🤷🏻‍♀️

Hopefully Tuesday he’ll be moved to Oklahoma for a week or two or ten, who knows, and then awaiting his final move! We think we have an idea where that will be, but will wait for the final stop! Definitely not where we were hoping and not as close as we had hoped, actually further than I thought was allowed🤷🏻‍♀️

But that’s why we wait…..I’ve learned….anything is possible! 

Please keep us/him in your thoughts and prayers as another step in this process unfolds🙏🏻💙

2 years ago today my husband was arrested💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

It never gets easier, but at least we are done with trial and sentencing and we have an end to this nightmare! Just waiting for the move, hopefully🙏🏻, closer to home, any day now!

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Doug was sentenced last week! 

Thank you for all the positive thoughts and prayers🇺🇸🙏🏻 The last almost 2 years hasn’t been easy! But we will continue to move forward! 

60 months for those who think they know everything! We are over halfway to the finish line. He gets time served, good time, and will get involved in programs, once he gets to where he’s going! My hope and prayer is that sometime in the next 8-18 months, he’ll be home! 

An appeal has been started! We will continue fight, but also be thankful and look/move to the future! 

We got this Douglas! Miss you like crazy and love you forever💙💜

Today has been 23 months my husband has been held hostage, as I call it! 

Next Friday he has sentencing! The government is asking for 64 months! Not the worst but not the best! Prayers the judge has a heart!

One holiday down, a couple to go! Not my favorite time of the year right now! But made it through and had a wonderful day! My family was blessed with COVID for the first time! My thanksgiving was spent quarantined, with all 3 of our children, couldn’t have asked for anything better, minus my husband here too, of course💙

I see my husband in 20 days and sentencing in 21 days! It will have been 709 days at that point, that my husbands been held hostage💙

Please continue to pray for our family! Thank you and God Bless! 

This guy!! Learned to push the doorbell

🙄🤣💙🐶

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Still miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

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Well crap🙄 LOVED, LOVED, LOVED seeing my handsome husband but just ready to be back home, and now it’s gonna be even longer🤦🏻‍♀️

41 days and I’ll be back and we’ll hopefully know exactly how much longer they will hold Douglas hostage💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸🤬 and my prayer is closer to home, but by the looks of others, not holding my breath🤷🏻‍♀️

In case anyone wonders what it’s like in my brain, during the “unknown” times of this past 2 years! 

I love you FOREVER Douglas 💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

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Happy Halloween all👻🎃💀

2 things….

1:) I get to see my husband this week…..thank you to those who made that possible again.

2:) For the first time in 22 years, as of 11:59PM tonight my family and I will it have health insurance offered to us through the union my husband busted his ass for the last 22 years…thank you to those who were able to help me keep that the last year. As everything else in my life, I’m gonna figure it out🤞🏻💕

So I’ve decided I really need to write a book of reasons “why I need my husband back” #209 spiders, hate them, encountering a HUGE one while doing #210 in the dark(garbage every week and recycling, which is every other week, but different days of the week🙄) and nobody to help pick up the recycling can (really, really full, well, because I suck) that spilled when I freaked out🤣🤣🤣

Can I please have him back yet💙

6 days and I see his handsome face and 50 days until sentencing

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Recording of the Jan 6 hostages in the DC jail, singing the National Anthem🇺🇸🙏🏻! Every night at 9:00PM DC time! Many, many times I was honored to hear this live while on the phone with my husband, who has been a hostage for 653 days🤬🤬

11 days now until I see my FOREVER love and 54 days until sentencing! 

Miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

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Thursday October 20th, 2022……57 days until sentencing now! And in 14 short days, I will get to see my handsome husbands face💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

I say to myself many, many times a day….it’s fine, I’m fine, everything is fine!! Closer to knowing how much longer my husband will be held hostage🤬 

Please keep the positive thoughts and prayers coming! Thank you and God Bless you all💕

61 days until sentencing and 18 days until I see my handsome husbands face

💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

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And we are down to 62 days until sentencing and 19 days until I get to see my loves face! Sucks no physical contact like a HUGE hug and kiss but seeing his face makes everything better for a minute! 

Still miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Ok prayer warriors! 

My moms landed herself a room in ICU again🥹! Horrible infection somewhere again and kidneys failing, blood sugars over 800! Last temperature check was 105! Now have her on a cooling blanket,  have her on antibiotics of course, fluids and a insulin drip! Waiting on blood gas results and blood cultures! Preliminary cultures showing a blood infection and she’s septic! She’s completely out of it again💔

More waiting and lots of praying🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

66 days until sentencing🙏🏻

23 days until I hopefully get to see my husband again🙏🏻

Just have to keep going! No time to look back or be negative!!

Miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙♾💕

68 days, but who’s counting🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Love you FOREVER Douglas Austin

💙♾💜

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Happy Anniversary to us today💙♾💜

21 years married-26 years together🙏🏻

Miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙♾💜

74 days until sentencing! Thank you for all the kind words! We just have to keep pushing forward and continue to keep hope and continue to have faith! Love you FOREVER Douglas Austin! 

We got this💪🏻💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Now officially 76 days until we find out what we’re facing🙏🏻 Keep the positive thoughts and prayers coming our way💪🏻

Love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

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Almost 77 days until we’ll hopefully know how much longer they will be holding my husband hostage🤬 and hopefully not too much longer after that, know where he will end up! Prayers it’s close to home🙏🏻 He can’t receive pictures, so I cheated the system and made him a calendar! They are photo copies of pictures! Now he will be able to know the day and date! Hope they let him have it!

Miss you like crazy and love you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸    

Thank you all for all the positive thoughts and prayers! Thank you to everyone who has reached out, sorry if I haven’t responded! You guys are all amazing and we are so lucky to have you all in our lives🙏🏻 I’m emotionally, mentally and physically drained! It’s so hard leaving my husband over a 1000 miles away🥹 This fight is far from over! December 16th will be sentencing, and then he will hopefully, FINALLY, be moved closer to home, almost 2 years later! An appeal will be started with a new lawyer. Again, yes my husbands actions were not the best, but I was there and I saw the videos, well, what they wanted to share! I heard what was said, 75% or more of that not having anything to do with my husband! Let alone, the things I witnessed about his treatment first hand this week! I Thank you so much to my bestie for being by my side, I’m not sure I could’ve done this shit show alone! You are absolutely the best💕 I’m glad we were able to get out and see some of the beauty DC and 5 of its surrounding states😊, has to offer, but that place sure does suck the life out of you! 

Douglas Austin, I love you FOREVER💙💪🏻💔♾

Made it DC! Gotta try and relax and get some sleep! Up and at it early! 

Please pray extra big for our family! Trial starts tomorrow morning! I’ve waited so long for this day and I’m not so sure I’m as ready as I thought I was! And my husband….can’t even imagine what he’s feeling or thinking! I just want to give him the biggest hug and I can’t even do that while I’m here🤬

We have been through H$&@ the last 20 plus months and I’m ready for some kind of “known”! I brought my husbands ID, with hopes and dreams they will just let him come home with me💔

No matter the outcome, we are going to continue to be the strong couple we are and nobody can take our “love for each other” away💪🏻

Douglas Austin, we got his, stay strong, hold that head high and I can’t wait to look into your eyes in the morning💙🙏🏻💔🇺🇸

Couple things…

1:) shits getting real, 3 days and I’ll be in DC😳

2:) when talking to my husband, he sounds so “sad” or “defeated”🥺

3:) doesn’t help he’s back in solitary 22 hours of the day😡

5:) continue to pray for our family please….I’m a wreak right now too🥹🙏🏻💙🇺🇸💔

Called the prison again this morning🤣🤣 He has been moved to a segregated unit🤷🏻‍♀️ and hopefully I should hear from him today! Gentlemen today was way more polite and helpful than the lady guard last night! Pray I get a cal today! 48 hours has been too long, but definitely not the longest, so I won't whine too much💙🇺🇸💔

Another day of…….no call from my husband🤬💔🇺🇸💙🙄🙏🏻

Today is 20 months, 608 days,14,613 hours,  876,893 minutes, and just because, 52,608,260 seconds😳🤬🥹

Miss and love you FOREVER Douglas 

💙♾💜♾💙♾💜

I NEED HIM 

I remember my husband asking me one day if I wanted to learn how to cook on the grill. (My husband can’t cook🤣💙)

I laughed and told him if he taught me how to grill, then I wouldn’t need him anymore. I quickly reminded him I didn’t need to be with him -- I wanted to be with him.

But truth is, I do need him.

I need him because he picks me up on the bad days and celebrates with me on the good ones.

I need him because he is honest with me. Even when I don’t want to hear it. Even more so when it hurts.

I need him because he can always make me laugh. One liners. Bad dad jokes. Or just being ridiculous. 

I need him because he makes me feel beautiful and confident. He puts me first and makes me a priority. 

I need him because he respects me and prays for me.

I need him because no one else could tolerate the terrible singer I am.

I need him because of his constant support and encouragement. 

I need him because he’s patient. He listens. He understands. He lets me cry. 

I need him because he leads, provides, and protects our family. 

I need him because he opens the doors, does all the heavy lifting, and carries down the piles of things I place on top of the stairs because for some reason I’m incapable of doing so myself.

I need him because he gives the best, warmest, longest hugs that can instantly make the whole world better.

I need him because he holds my hand at all the right moments.

I need him because he loves me through it. 

I need him because there is no one else I would want by my side. 

I need him💙💔💙💔💙💔

When my husband hasn't got pictures in awhile and you can only send 10 pictures at a time! You send 10 packages🤣🤣🤣

Thank goodness he sent me his leftover stamps!

Gosh, I just miss him something fierce! And as the days count down to trial, I become a freaking wreak🙏🏻💙🇺🇸💔🥹

Happy Sunday! God Bless! 

Happy Saturday!  Headed out to Topeka Kansas for a family reunion! Feels so weird going without my husband, 2nd year! I didn't go last year, couldn't bring myself to do it! 

Labor Day parade on Monday, had been 19 years of being IN the parade walking or on the semi with the kids! 

Doug's union was always IN the parade! I'm doing this one with a kid for sure😊🇺🇸

Praying Mantis saw me off this morning💕

September 2nd 2022! One year ago they “yanked” my husband away from my family again🤬 for accessing the internet! I was blessed to have him home from July 14th until September 2nd! In 6 days, it will be 20 months, January 8th 2021, he was arrested! Life has not gotten one little bit better since this started! Please continue to keep our family in your prayers💙🙏🏻🇺🇸

Got to talk to my husband for 30 minutes tonight💙! That was a long 16 days! Yes, I received some 5 minute calls since Friday evening, but 30 minutes was awesome🙏🏻

My husband is now in Alexandria Detention Center in Virginia! He will be there for the foreseeable future. Please send prayers he stays safe at this new location💔

Trial is set to start in 2 weeks/5 days! 

Please pray for our family as these even more difficult days are approaching for us all! May God walk beside us during these days/weeks/months ahead and always🙏🏻🇺🇸

I was able to see my husband in court on Friday…..no hug, no kiss, not a single word……but I saw he’s alive and ok! Court sucked……per usual! I did finally get 3-five minute calls last Friday night and about

5-five minute call last night too, didn’t care the cost💙 I was gonna try to see him while I was here because I finally found where he was moved, but, stupid quarantine time won’t allow it!

About to board the plane to go back home…..the hardest part for me is knowing I’m leaving my FOREVER LOVE over a 1000 miles away💔🥹 really sad I wasn’t able to see him at the jail, but I’ll be back! Trial in 3 weeks😳🤢! 

Please continue to pray for our family, especially for my husband, that he can remain strong, keeps the faith, he never loses the hope I know he has, that he stays safe and that he continues to never doubt the love I have for him💙

Love you all💜🇺🇸

But, he’s ok💙💔🙏🏻 Thanks again to everyone who helped make this possible💕

I love and miss you FOREVER Douglas Austin💙

Hate to repeat myself, but...ONE WEEK (24 days is the current record)💔💙🙏🏻🥹🤬 One week of not hearing my handsome husbands voice, telling me how much he loves and misses me and knowing that for that moment, he is ok! One week of me getting to tell him to stay strong and to "hang on" and not let go of the grip we have💙♾💜(it can’t be broken) and that I'm gonna be here waiting for him FOREVER, "tell death do us part" One of those weeks were it's really hard to hold it together and stay strong, but I'm still over here killing it💪🏻

Keep the prayers and the kind words coming! 

Miracles can happen and hope and faith can bring you what is needed when you least expect it! We received a small (huge) miracle, that I can’t even begin to think of the words to say to the people who helped make this happen! 

Thank you and God Bless🙏🏻

So, still no word from my husband! I can only hope and pray that everything is ok with him! 

I hate this whole situation, but again, these are the times I REALLY hate! I’ve said it before, the unknowns are the worst! I have messaged him everyday, so when he can see them, he knows that I am still out here worried sick about him! I tell him to hang on, stay strong, and hold onto our love, because they can never take that away💙

Please continue to say prayers for him and our little family🙏🏻💔

Well it’s Wednesday, August 17th at 2:20PM and I haven’t heard from my husband since Sunday💔🥹

I’ve been told there was an “issue” with another inmate and my husband and because he’s in prison, both parties get put into the hole! He was in need of medical attention, possibly and I’m not even certain that was given to him🤬

Over 19 months of the crap and his first time going to the hole! All because of the actions of others! Another time I’m “throwing my baby fit” and saying “it’s not fair” 

Please pray for my husband that all is well with him, he was given the medical attention he was needing, he makes it through the dark time, and that he continues to know how much is his loved and missed daily💙💔🥹

Thank you and God Bless

Happy Monday! HOPE!!! Amen🙏🏻💙

God Bless the good ones💙🙏🏻

So, as of Monday it has been 19 months of this huge nightmare for us! 

Trial is on for September still. I’m trying to help keep my husbands spirits up too💙🥹

Not sure who gets to see these, but to Connie in Florida, if you can see this…. My husband received his letter💕Thank you so much for the kind and encouraging words! They were definitely needed, for all parties! 

Thank you everyone for the prayers🙏🏻

God Bless! 

August 7th 2022🥹

Screaming a HUGE Happy Happy Birthday to my FOREVER love! Still miss you like crazy and will always love you FOREVER💔🥹🎉🎁🥳🎂🎈💙

Also this guys 8th Birthday today! Harley or as I say, “the big Turd”🐶💙🎂🎁

Yesterday was 11 months since they took my husband back! The 8th will be 19 months since this nightmare started! 

Everyday I just continue to pray for a miracle and have faith that my husband can home sooner, rather than later, 

Well, my husband told me last night, that I shouldn’t even bother to come to DC in August for his pre-trial conference hearing or September for his trial! I don’t need to make sure he has nice clothes for trial, he’ll just wear his “oranges”! He says he’s already been convicted and that he’s going to be found guilty, because he can’t get a fair trial in DC🤷🏻‍♀️🤬

Me being me, I’m still going! Just have to try to turn his mindset around! 

Miss him like crazy and love him FOREVER💙🇺🇸

Happy Monday!!

Just missing my husband like crazy💔💙😢

Thank you for all the prayers🇺🇸💙

It’s a beautiful Sunday here! Perfect, gorgeous weather! 

I can’t help but miss my husband! I hate he is “caged” up! He’s requested a fan for months and they have been “on back order”! It’s got to be so hot and unbearable for him! No air, limited fans running out in the rec area! 

In a little under 2 months now, we will hopefully have an answer to some unknowns! We can start to plan for our forever again! I’m not a fan of “unknowns” at all! Just let me have it? What are we looking at? When can I get him home? Or at least closer to home? So many questions, so little answers! His trial may get pushed out even further? We shall see? 

Please continue to pray for our family💙🇺🇸

💙🇺🇸 Miss you like crazy and Love you FOREVER Douglas💙🇺🇸

One year ago today, I had drove 1,031 miles in about 17-18 hours! I waited 5-6 hours outside of the DC Jail! It had been the longest 6 months and 6 days of my life at the time! All of the correction officers were A&@holes, except one! Sargent Robinson! He took my pic and went up to Doug and said there was some women from Iowa that said she wanted her husband back! He gave me his number so I could reach out for an update! I got to pick up my husband! It was the best to finally get to hug him, kiss him and bring him home! I was blessed to have him home for 49 days, until they took him back, because he “listened” to something though bluetooth on a work radio, while cutting down a huge tree in our back yard and had to “access the internet” to do so🤬

Now today it’s been 10 months and 11 days since he was taken away again and it feels like there is no end in sight! I miss my husband more than anything and life just isn’t the same being a “single” parent or a “single” wife! I WANT/NEED him back!

Happy Sunday! 

It’s my day of rest! My husband tells me I’m not supposed to do anything on Sunday’s! they are for relaxing, recharging and spending time with your family! I’ve become really good at this over the last 18 months! 

Happy Friday! Today is 18 months since our nightmare started! Another week has come and gone! Another holiday missed by my husband! 

As time goes on and things come up that need to be taken care of, it gets harder. I’m tired of being a “single” parent and a”single” wife! We have worked so hard in our 25 years together to give our children everything they could ever need and want! We wanted them to have better childhoods than we did! Which was going great until 18 months ago! 

It’s so hard doing it alone! I’ve been able to keep everything (minus my husbands truck and stocks that I sold 17 months ago to pay off my car to save me $500)

Thank you and God Bless everyone who has helped us along the way!

I’m so ready to at least see a glimmer of light at the end of this dark tunnel we are in. 

Happy Friday! Made it through another week of work and life alone! Also, another month down onto the next🤮Some days I am just a little more sad than others? No reason, just the weight of life on only my shoulders right now and just missing my FOREVER love ALOT lately💔😢

Happy Tuesday! 

As the 4th of July approaches, I can’t be anything but thankful for my own freedom! My husband unfortunately will be spending another Independence Day behind bars, in prison, awaiting his day in court! 

Please say a prayer for everyone affected by this whole nightmare! And thank you for your continued support and prayers! 

Thank you and God Bless!

Well another Fathers Day came and went (2nd one he’s been incarcerated for) and my children's dad/my husband wasn't here to be celebrated! Those are the days that really stink! 

Thought eventually the days would get easier, but it feels as though I’m just doing the motions and not really living! 

Please pray this nightmare ends sooner rather than later for my little family! 

Gob Bless

We have raised some of the best kids! Our puppy had to have surgery today, ER vet wanted to do it yesterday, but at 2-3 times the cost! Vet today did it for way less! 

Our 16 year old was there with me, and heard them say $5000-$7000 at the ER Vet yesterday and saw me break down! She then came to me last night and said she had started her own Go Fund Me to help me!! She had no idea what she was doing but was gonna help save our puppy!

“Hi. My family and I have a puppy who is 3 months old and ate something he should not have. He needs surgery tomorrow morning in order for him to be okay. Help us help our mom save our puppy. Even if you cannot donate prayers are helpful.”

Prayers please for our Little Leo🙏🏻

Happy Blessed Sunday! 

Our Baby Girl is now a legal adult! Our 2nd born, 1st daughter is 18 today! Going to be another day we celebrate, while her father sits in prison! I have to “let her go” without my husband here to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright and that “we” did it too! Raised another child to become an upstanding citizen! I’m just not ready to send her out into this crazy world on her own:( 

Dad and I love you Baby girl, have fun, be safe and make good choices. The world is yours if you want it💕

Please take a moment to send a quick a little Birthday wish and prayer her way!

So many life events keep happening and there is nothing we can do to bring my husband home any faster:(

Thank you all again for the continued love, support and prayers! They do not go unnoticed! 

Gos Bless! 

Well she did! Our 2nd born, 1st daughter graduated yesterday! It was a bitter sweet day! She worked so hard to achieve this goal and never gave up, even though there were times is was very hard on her! I ended up finding her a locket to wear, and put a picture of her dad in it, per her request! He was near her heart the whole time💙! This is one of those life events we can’t have a redo of, I’m so sad for all of us😢

Have a great Memorial Day and be sure to thank those, who have served to protect us, past, present and future!

Happy Sunday Morning! 

In 6 days our middle child will walk across the stage and graduate high school! 

In 2 weeks she will turn 18! 

And in 3 weeks, we will be celebrating her accomplishment!  

We are so incredibly proud of her! She did this as a teenager going through this horrible situation! 

It makes me so sad, angry, frustrated, scared, etc that we are having to do all of this without my husband and my children without their father! Just another “first/only” life event being missed by him! 

Please pray for us and say a little congratulation to the one who finished high school while living a real life nightmare😢🙏🏻

Tomorrow is 16 months since our nightmare started! That’s 486 days! I’d be lying if I said it has gotten any easier! Today my dryer quit working! I’ll admit I had a little melt down and yelled at my husband out load for not being here to fix it! I tried to clean the vent, but it didn’t work! When my husband called tonight I couldn’t quit crying about it! He has a way even as he’s locked away in a Maximum Security Prison, pre-trail, to calm my nervous! He told me to call Maytag as it may be under warranty! So part my Mother’s Day will be spent with our kiddos at the laundromat, something I haven’t done in many, many years! Ugh! 

Please continue to pray that this nightmare for us can be over sooner rather than later! I just really miss my husband and really want him back! 

God Bless🙏🏻

Haven’t done an update in forever! Life has been super crazy and I need nothing more than my husband home to wrap his arms around me and tell me life is going to be ok! 

Please pray for my momma! She had bypass surgery on 11/5/21 and has had complication after complication, too much for this update! After being in the hospital since surgery, minus 2 small releases to home, she was finally released to my sisters on 3/17/22 with a wound vac still in place on her chest! She was transported back to the hospital via ambulance on 3/24/22! They’ve found she has staph infection in her chest wound and her blood! Please pray the medications start working and help save her! 

Doug’s trial date has finally been set for September 19-23 in DC, unless the motion to have it moved to our home state is approved! 

We have almost 6 months until then and he is still incarcerated in a Federal Prison! Just doesn’t seem fair or legal, but what do I know? 

Our baby just turned 16 last week, our middle baby is graduating in May and 18 in June! Doing this life without my FOREVER love is getting hard, but I will continue to stay strong for my husband, our children and myself! I will continue to rise everyday and kick life’s ass! 

Thank you all for the prayers, positives messages and donations! They are very appreciated and are not ignored! 

God Bless, 

The Jensen’s! 

Just talked to my husband! Longest 24 days of my life! That has been the longest I’ve had to go without talking to him since this whole thing started and he was arrested on January 8th 2021! Prior record was 16 days without talking to him! 

Please continue to pray for our family and my husband! 

It’s been 4 days since I’ve heard from my husband! These are the days I want to scream, cry, cuss, break something, just want to straight throw an “it’s not fair” fit!

The prison says it’s because they are on lockdown due to COVID? Fine, I get that, whatever, but how can they not have to let them at least call their families? Don’t they realize what it does to a person? Him, being locked up 24 hours a day by himself, knowing that I’m here worried sick! Or me here not knowing if he really is ok and just on lockdown? Or is something wrong? They’d have to tell me right? 

I’ve been with my husband for 2 1/2 decades…25 years! That’s a lot of days of waking up next to him and saying good morning and a lot of nights, laying next to him and saying good night! 

This last year has definitely been challenging and we’ve conquered things that I never in a million years would have thought would be my actual life now.

A lot of days and life events have been missed by my husband and for us having to continue on, missing him on so may firsts in the last 365 days! 

I have to continue to believe in miracles and continue to pray that my husband will get to come home soon, or at least that phone call home! 

Today marks 51 weeks since my husband was taken from our family! 1 week away from a whole year!

I just celebrated my first Christmas in 25 years without my husband and our children just celebrated there first ever without their dad. Doug spent his Christmas and now New Years Eve all alone in Solitary confinement/quarantine due to COVID, as he was transferred to a different Federal Penitentiary 2 1/2 weeks ago from the DC prison! Now we are about to start a whole new year without him! This has been such a rough and overwhelming year! 

Please continue to pray for all of us and for the strength to continue to fight this ugly battle! 

God Bless and Happy New Year!