Hi to all

My name is Dawn, some people call me Lillian as it is my first name. Anyway here is my story.

Around 2 years ago I was diagnosed with non small cell lung cancer. 1st thing was spot on radiation, which means everyday 5 days a week We drove up to Cumberland Maryland and Mondays was chemotherapy. So for 6 weeks Monday -friday radiation and both on Mondays, then we continue the chemo treatment. But 11 months in and I got very ill. Anyway I was put in the hospital with pneumonia I was in there for 8 days through the Holidays, But all was good. So every 3 month I went for cat scan and my doctor said that he could not find CANCER so he me get a full body scan and couldn't find any cancer, he said cancer has been known to move that is why he wanted to check.so for over almost 2 years no cancer nowhere, now he couldn't say I was in remission so I don't know what he put in his records, however I was taking a drug called Ivermectin that you couldn't get here I take it everyday and I really believe it worked on killing those cells. But I think the next batch that I bought was fake. Now i don't know if the one I have now is real or not but 'hat's a chance I have to take. I had to go to the hospital again here in Romney because I was having again breathing problems and they did a cat scanof my chest and they said that the cancer had grown 2 cm they suggested that I contact my cancer doctor as soon as possible which I didr and took the paperwork up there to show him and he said well we should wait 3 months to see if it grows anymore so we did and it was still growing oR spreading.it makes it hard for me to breath and I am not able to catch my breath. I didn't realize because we take things for granted every single day, I thank God everyday for what I do have but things that are so important we take granted and breathing is one of them that we think it's just natural but trust me it's not.

I'm on oxygen now because again I got phenomenon again and was taken to the hospital in Winchester Virginia and was there for 5 days. so I'm supposed to weari it constantly to try to help heal the lung to get ready for the Chemo this week

.I.am not stupid, I know I don't have long in this world. But I'm ok with that, I can't complain but I can see this I need help I don't have the money to be buried my husband lost his job and when he did we los our life insurance and now I can't get any so I'm asking people and I don't like to ask people for anything. truly would rather not but I need help to pay for this I don't want to be cremated it's something that I don't want I mean I really don't want I don't believe in it I want to be buried I don't mind going cuz I want to go with Jesus and I hope I can, I pray I can I'm not worthy I know that I'm a sinner and I definitely fall short of the glory of God. But I love God and I believe in Jesus I had people ask me how do you know how I know what is real how do I know he's alive how do I know that he died on the cross for me well I just do I can feel it I can feel his presence, not always but I have. it it's something I can't explain but I know he's there he's always been there he will always be there for me. So anyone that is willing to help me with this I would appreciate it more than you could know. I don't have much family just a niece and my son. I lost my daughter 9 years ago. And it has been the hardest pain I've ever had in my life it's better but it never gets gone you know what I mean I miss her everyday always. You know my mom always told me that we're supposed to not and how she put it we're supposed to die before our children die but that's not always the case it wasn't the case for my mom either. Anyway thank you for listening God bless you all and thanks for the support.