Thank you all so much for your contributions. Thank you, endlessly. I am so, so incredibly blessed with an army of people. My childhood friends: bless you. I'm sorry I wasn't okay when we were close, and I'm sorry that I kept such an inner-turmoil quietly on the sidelines. I'm blown away at your compassion. With your help, I was able to go to my second appointment with the best doctor I could have ever hoped for. Our goals are to create peace inside myself, so that these broken fragments of my own personality can eventually be at peace and become whole again. 2 appointments down, a lifetime of happiness to go.