Hello, my name is Angel Mendiola. I am 40 years old. I am female. I'm from San Antonio Texas. For as long as I could remember, medically speaking, I've been in pain. Physically and phycologically. Ive been in some unimaginable, excruciating so far beyond belief and beyond the worse kind of life that ain't worth living. I hate saying it like that but life is already hard enough. I can't and haven't for years now haven't been able to take care of myself. My needs. My kids..... I tried. I went to school last year so I can become someone. Well, I owe student loans now and I can't even work. The pain is really excruciating. Worse that labor pain. This pain is constant. It's a combination of like 12 different pains that I experience all at once in a vicious cycle that never seems to stop. I cant remember much from my childhood but what I can recall is I was always in and out of doctors offices. At the time, I was too young to understand what all of this meant for me as an adult or when I'm growing old. I didn't know just how serious my condition really was. It's tragic living with this pain. It's a profound sense of loss. Leaves me living life with deep regret and anguish. I grew up in pain because of these diseases I was bone with in my spine. As a baby, I couldn't crawl. I had trouble. Lots of trouble. Hurt so bad I screamed in pain every time I tried ..so I was the baby who didn't get to crawl. My mother had me checked out by a doctor because she wanted to know why her baby couldn't crawl. I don't know what the doctors told my mother but I had to wear braces around my legs until I could walk. My parents were to poor to afford treatment for me. So I got assistance from the government. Got medicaid until I turned 18. I had to see an orthopedic surgeon, a bone density doctor, a neurologist, a urologist. Then there was my primary care doctor, physical therapist phycologist and then I did reflexology for treatment for my spinal conditions. At the time I only had spondylosis, spondylosis thesis and scoliosis. By the time I hit 17 I was told I had bones of a 40 year old. I couldn't live a normal childhood. My parents were so afraid for me to fall. Now that I'm 40 I understand the reason why they were so afraid for me because now I am too. I couldn't do PE or even play a sport. I remember crying about it all the time wishing I was normal. I was severely overweight. I got it good by my peers , they were so ugly to me. I hated life so much I was suicidal. If life meant getting bullied like to an extreme that no one should ever have to go through and then at home I had this angry dad who beat me all the time. I didn't want it. I didn't know happiness..i didn't know it was real and did exist . I was really intelligent though. I was in all the advanced glasses in high school and was placed in the gifted and talented classes in junior high school. At the age of 9 I learned to play a musical instrument. It was my vice. My escape from the world. I loved it so much even went to college for music. I didn't pursue anything with the whole music thing though. San Antonio college sucked the passion right out of me. The music theory teacher hated my father. So I guess he hated me too. He got a kick out of humiliating me all the time when I'd show up to class. I needed an 80or better to go to the next level and he gives me a 79.9. his name is Mr.Karey Jazz instructor. Worse experience ever. Anyway, Because I was such a sick kid, I received benefits from the government so that I can get the right care and treatment for my spinal diseases. It helped a lot. It's been 22years since I e received any kind of treatment for my illnesses. I tell you what though. I wish I kept re appealing for disability because lord knows I need it. Without disability, I couldn't have gotten or received the kind of treatment I need. I'd be in worser shape at a younger age with my spine. I'd probably be dead today because of the pain being so severe and chronic. without the help from the government assistance, I'm in trouble. So real trouble and I have no one. .i was raised in poverty . My parents struggled hard to keep the lights on . I was raised in poverty and wasn't privileged. My dad try his best but only gave us what was needed . Nothing extra. Nothing more . Never got the things we wanted just what we needed/could afford. Which wasnt much. it was considered the bare minimum. Less than actually . So lived in a depression. I was perfectly normal to experience depression. I have pretty good reasons to be. because I grew up with a very angry dad, bullying became hazing. The real reason why I wanted to learn to play an instrument . I learned to play music at a young age because I wanted my dad to be nice to me. so my dad wouldn't want to hurt me anymore . I failed. He didn't want to be my friend. He is my dad. Not my friend. I thought that maybe if he were my friend he'd be nice to me and want to spend time with me. So, anyway. To whoever is reading this. I need help . I don't know where to go from here. At a young age I developed spondylosis thesis, spondylosis and scoliosis. When I got the medical treatment I needed it helped. I was able to keep my progressive diseases from getting worse because I had received the treatment I needed .At the age of 18. I couldn't afford treatment anymore so I couldn't continue. Today, I still can't afford treatment. It's been 22years. I've been so poor and broke Never could go back and start again. I can't afford the treatment, it's too expensive. The last 12 years I've been in non stop excruciating constant pain. It doesn't get better but it has only gotten worse. quickly too. I've got scoliosis 11degree curve, spondylosis, spondylosis thesis, spinal stenosis, sciatica , kyphosis, listhisis(mobile vertebrae), pars fracture, no longer have a disc between L5-SI. I've got arthritis in my bones and more. On April 25th 2026 at 950AM . It was a Saturday morning. Clear sky and it was sunny day. I pulled over down the street from my house to fix something in the car while I was on my way to work. so I was parked and while I was pulled over by the curb a vehicle hits me from behind. Hits me so hard his 2021toyota 4runner flips over on it side and slides several feet.i was about a block from where I was parked His vehicle was then turned 180° . So his vehicle was turned facing towards me. Driver was strapped to his seat. I watched everyone run over to him to help him but no one came to check on my. Just the police and fire department. My car was deem a total loss. what caused him to lose control of his vehicle I still don't know. All I know is he caused more pain on my body. my neck has 4 popped disc and one Cracked one. I have 4 bulging disc in my lower spine from L1 down to -L4. No disc between L5-SI. I have 3 children. What am I supposed to tell them. I cannot take care of my own children. So my parents have them. my 2sons and my aunt adopted my daughter when she was 2.i couldn't take care of her back then either. This pain rules my life. Now that pain is even worse. My job cut my hours. . It's so hard to live life like this. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't hardly work. It's been this way for too long now. It's excruciating. Stress that's been emotionally draining. My boss had to cut my hours at work because I'm not able to meet the requirements for what my job calls for. I'm a stylist at great clips and I'm afraid that I'm gonna lose my job soon. This auto accident has significantly made my life Worse. I've got this boyfriend who hates me. He hates being with me because I. Sick all the time, lazy and claims I'm only with him because he pays for everything. He hasn't and won't pay for anything for me. It's been years. He talks to me ugly when I do ask for his help. So I went to school hoping for a better life that I can do for myself but I can't do anything. I need so many things and help it's not tunny. I need prayer, direction, loans or anything

.please let me know. The person who is supposed to love me doesn't he complains that he's got to pay my way but doesn't. The only person I have to turn to just leaves me hanging. Heakes me feel worse. I'm so far behind in life, bills. Health related issuses. I'm getting more sick the more time I'm spending away from getting treatment. Health insurance is too expensive . I'm very limited on services the free insurance policies do provide. I don't know what to do. I need help and I don't know where or who to turn to. My family is so dysfunctional. I can't get help from them either. I'm so embarrassed and I'm scared. I'm gonna be in a wheelchair soon if I don't start addressing my conditions and I don't know when that's gonna happen . All I know is I wanna walk. I feel that chair coming soon. everyday is getting worse and gets even more worse and worser. Please help. I've got student loans and child support payments I cannot afford. I can't pay rent or utilities. Food I can't afford either. My boyfriend stopped helping long ago. I need help. I need another epidural steroid injection and some injections for my neck.