Hi I'm Nick,

Sometimes Nickylows or Nickytricks

Rare times I'm just Dick I promise.

My journey has been plagued by challenge before I could even breath. Try having an umbilical cord wrapped around your neck, suffocating you which was intend to nourish. I've maneuvered in whichever way I thought best I could from personal struggles including depression, anxiety and the discouraging feeling of not even being ale to be normal due to a physical disability. It eats away at you. And substance use, helps for a bit until it doesn't. Its not any easier when doctors are afraid to give out prescriptions now due to backlash. Funny, I thought the doc's were in charge of their field not the "political leaders" in suits who get advised by a new intern of the week. But back to me, my responsibility, The strained relationships with my family is something a guilt I can never take back and have to silently rot in for the rest of my life. Its awful, like being in a room you're eroding faster and faster with just your presence. Did I mention I always find this magical path to legal issues somehow, which always occurs one way or another(that's 100% on me). Realizing I needed to stop is a tough, but necessary step. I'm currently considering rehabilitation to get my life back on track and find the stability I need. There are times when I feel a profound lack of interest, a blandness in everything, and that's where my depression kicks in. It's not supposed to feel this way constantly, but that persistent urge is real. Despite the setbacks, I have passions that bring me back, like voice acting. Ever since watching "Lilo and Stitch" and "Dragon Ball Z" as a kid, I've dreamed of getting into that world, bringing to life creative and funny voices and mannerisms. I also enjoy video games and computers and hope to create content dumb and dead pan humor as some may not enjoy. I'm not a criminal, just someone who's been through a lot and is figuring out how to be level and okay by himself. I know it looks bad but I went through a lot considering it was only 4-5 months. Lost the girl of 3+ years, unfortunately she moved on and you know what, I still didn't hate her and she's my best friends to this day. I was spiraling. This fundraiser, although this is not my worst rock bottom, not even close if we are talking physical health, come back to 2020 with me. This fundraiser is in hopes for my legal cases and to relieve just an ounce of stress would be wonderful, and I'd just be happy enough sleeping in a car if that's attainable anymore as even basic living and sleeping in a car feels unattainable and a good enough reason to get your license taken away.. I appreciate you all listening, and I'm not asking for some absurd amount like $500,000 that's ridiculous.., I know we can get too $825,000if we really put our minds to it. HAHAHA

But no I just need a few grand to pay back my dad, car insurance, a new car for my ex Koryssa because I do owe her one after I flipped hers. And maybe just a place to look for. It'll be your get out of jail free good karma card. If you can pity a bum like me I promise. And it would never go unforgotten. I'm just exhausted and doing something I don't usually do is ask others for help. Trust me I know I don't deserve sympathy but now they're tying to take my liveliness which I use for Door Dash as a second job. I promise I'm not a criminal or a danger to the I munity. I'm just a guy that goes home after work, watches anime and tries to do better day by day. I will be better

P.S.

RIP Daveigh Chase