One can dream...I understand this world of ours is filled with charitable people everywhere, giving to way bigger, better causes than mine. I’d always hoped that I, one day, would be one of those people that could make a huge impact on a part of society. But here I am today, just a single person, with a family, on the opposite side of life. I may not have made an impact on many people by being charitable financially, so to speak, but I did, and will continue to be, charitable through the act of kindness and caring.
I’ve always found great self worth and joy in helping others. I often find my most joyful moments in life giving to someone in need. Whether it’s knowing I can’t afford it, but still using my artistic ability to make a gift for a new mother, or by making a candy bouquet for a friends birthday, or buying something small for a patient, just to see the surprise on their face, through a smile. I enjoy caring for the elderly (some of the most wise people I’ve ever had the privilege to meet). They have a different value on life, one I appreciate so dearly, one full of innocence, but at the same time full of such wisdom. They deserve the kind of respect that can not be put into words. I have always enjoyed caring for children, whether my own amazing boys, or my nieces and nephews, or babysitting for a friend. I even have a sense of joy seeing that random baby, sitting in a grocery cart; the one you pass in the grocery store and make a cheesy face at, just to make them smile. Sometimes I feel like “I live to give”, that giving is my “special power”, until recently, when I found myself in a situation that isn’t just hurting me, but my family. The point I’m making is for me to give is the most self rewarding thing I feel I can do. And I’m at a place in my life where I can’t give like I’d like to, but am now asking for others to possibly give to help me.
We are a family of 4. My husband and I have been married for 14 years(in August). We both work full time and are full time parents too. We don’t live in a big, fancy house, or drive the nicest cars. We have a home built on love and nothing more. Most of the debt we’ve incurred is from home repairs, car problems, and medical deductibles, and yes, from an occasional family meal to bring us all together after a long day. We’ve never had a savings, which may be our first mistake. We have all of our bills paid and take full responsibility for the debt we’ve incurred. We have consolidated our debt only to find an even higher payment in interest, and for only some of our debts. We have consolidated the other amounts with another company, with a 29% interest rate, for 5 years. Desperate to find a company to give us a consolidation loan on all of the $80,000 in debt we have, we have failed. Our credit is fair, only because of the amount of debt and credit used. We are both trying to find 2nd jobs. At the end of the day I know how blessed I am.... to have my children, my health (for now), my husband, family, friends, and most importantly-God.
Thank you for listening. Thank you for not judging. And my most sincere thank you for being the change this world needs. With love, Kristan