I cannot thank you all enough for the prayers and support. Treatment is going very well, and I have experienced many, many blessings this week.
On Friday, Marc and Jesie O. treated me to dinner and a baseball game, and on Saturday, I drove to Idaho. Jim and Jan Mc invited me to spend the weekend with them. The drive was beautiful. The most impressive vista was of the windmills. I wish I had a picture, but even that would not do them justice. They are huge and intimidating and alien and fascinating. The company was wonderful. I experienced a mega church; the Pastor was teaching on wisdom. I could have listened for another hour or more.
I am also reading the novel The 49th Mystic by Ted Dekker. Some wonderful truths in this fictional piece. If you've never read his novels, I suggest you do.
And a line from the 49th Mystic: Ch 21 - ...."....remember that every encounter is an opportunity for salvation from the storrm. What you are tempted to call a problem is only an instrument for awakening so that you can see what is true, as seen Inchristi...."
Lastly, but importantly, My God continues to sustain me. Today's verses are:
Psalm 71:14 As for me, I will always have hope.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you...Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Plam 136:2-3, 26 Give thanks to the God of gods...Give thanks to the Lord of lords....Give thanks to the God of heaven, for His steadfast love endures forever.
Much love <3
First day of treatment other than nutrition and exercise. Here's how it went:
1) I started the day in Ecclesiates....specifically 7:21 Also, do not take to heart everything people say. . .
2) Disrobing down to underpants for a stranger....that's always a thrill.
3) WholeFoods did not rob me blind....that's a bonus.
4) Climbed into something that looked alike a disposable coffin (but then again, aren't they all?) I instantly thought of my mother who would have hated it, and then I took a nap for almost an hour (hyperbaric therapy)
5) Finished the day with an ionic foot bath. So much junk came out it looked like my father had been cleaning parts in that bucket. Ewww! and yet fascinating all at once.
So, yes. I did not take it to heart when I was told the treatments would exhaust me. So far, so good.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
That's all for now folks. As always, I covet your prayers. <3
Thank you all so much for your prayers and your kind, generous donations. These along with others have covered the expense of my airbnb, the rental car and a good start to treatment. Our God is faithful to fulfill his promises, and He certainly has used you all to open his storehouse. It is humbling to know that you all care, and it is humbling to receive such gifts. Both Mark and I are very grateful.
The ultrasound of my lymph nodes showed that they are normally abnormal. Left and right axillary nodes are symmetrical - but abnormally shaped. Because there is symmetry, the Radiologist said they have no cancer. Yay God! And I got to skip the biopsy - I wasn't looking forward to a needle in my arm pit. The visit with Dr. Darvish went very well. She agrees with my plan of care for my diagnosis and situation - surgery and natural medicine. Everything that has happened is best case scenario for a cancer diagnosis.
So I will spend 3 weeks in Seattle/Bellvue for treatment and surgery. This morning, there was a snafu with the airbnb that I booked; I was a bit aggravated. But I reminded myself that I trust the Lord, and He will work this out. A brother in Christ encouraged me with John 14:27 .....Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. And yes, the Lord had worked it out by the end of the day. He is good. I continue to have his peace over my health; I'll claim it for travel arrangements and learning to use Uber as well. I am also claiming and praying the promise of Malachi 3:10. I covet your continued prayers for healing, for God's leading, and that I would be a good ambassador of His name.
Mark and I had agreed that I should use Uber rather than rent in a car. After calculating the cost, that seemed reasonable. Last Monday, I felt inspired just to check pricing on a rental car. Lo and behold, it turned out to be 25% less than 1 trip/day with Uber. So I booked it. I am so excited to have just that much more freedom.
Enter His gates with thanksgiving
and His courts with praise.
Give Him thanks, and praise His name.
This is the first verse/page of a coloring book I am using for meditation.
Thank you all for your diligent prayers. Until recently, I had nothing to report. I was impatiently waiting and praying.
Thank you Lord for the continued peace I have.
Thank you Lord the cancer has not spread to other parts of my body.
Thank you Lord for my team in Seattle, and that they support me even though I am not following “standard of care”.
They suggested chemotherapy prior to surgery and removal of one “abnormal” axillary lymph node and radiation later. (Chemotherapy not only kills the immune system while the patient is having it, it suppresses the immune system for 2-3 years. Removal of lymph nodes puts the patient at risk of lymphedema which means wearing a compression sleeve every time I exercise and every time I fly. Radiation puts the patient at risk for more cancer.) After considerable prayer, I am not comfortable with these options. Jesus came to give life and life in abundance, and the “standard of care” does not appear to give life in abundance.
The first week in August, we will biopsy the lymph node – if it shows cancer we will remove it; if not, we will leave it intact. The next day, I will see Nooshin Darvish, ND in Bellevue. She specializes in cancer treatment by finding the imbalances in the body and correcting them and boosting the immune system...in essence, helping your body function as God created it to function.
I am scheduled for mastectomy and initial reconstruction on September 13. There are many more details around surgery that still need to be worked out, but I trust God in His timing and His provision.
I know, many people are wondering why getting treatment is taking so long. My medical oncologist has assured me there is no great hurry. This tumor is slow growing (has a low mitotic rate) and has been growing for 3-5 years, another medical professional thinks possibly 10 years – so in the grand scheme of things a few weeks is not a big deal. I am not a worrier by nature, and I am thankful their professional opinions support that. God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power and love and sound mind.
Going back to the impatiently waiting comment:
I had a bit of a temper tantrum with the Lord. He reminded me that those who wait upon Him will have their strength renewed...I reminded Him how long I had been waiting for either Him to heal me or for a date for surgery. After that, I got a call from the scheduling nurse who is filling in. Within a few days, I had a date for the biopsy and a few days later, I had a date for surgery. I am so thankful that He allows us to approach His throne of grace with confidence....even the confidence of a tantrumming child. He has always been faithful when I approach Him with, “You said. . .” He is faithful to keep His promises.
I do believe He is healing me through this process. Please continue to pray for His healing, His perfect timing and His provision. Please pray that I would be a good ambassador of Jesus' love. Please pray as He would lead you, and share what he has spoken or shown you. I appreciate you all, my brothers and sisters in Christ.
So, for some of you, this is an introduction. (sorry; it's kind of a lot – but that's me)
We moved to Juneau 6 years ago. I come from a culture where fences make good neighbors, and good neighbors build fences. In fact you can tell the intimacy of a relationship by observing a visitor in your neighbor's yard. Were they met at the driveway? Were they met on the front porch? Or did they enter the house? Crossing the threshold meant the visitor was family: by blood, by friendship or spiritually.
Why am I making a big deal out this? Recently, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. And beyond the many promising scriptures of hope that the Lord has given me, He has shown me that I have idolized my fence. It is time let Him be the gate keeper.
So, my brothers and sisters in Christ, yes, please pray for healing, but more importantly, pray that I would continue to be open to His leading. Thanks. TTYL
(Promising scriptures of hope: James 1:2-5, Lamentations 3:33, Psalm 119:50 and Jeremiah 29:11 I have asked for and believe in miraculous, instantaneous healing. He reminded me of the 10 lepers in Luke 17...vs 14 as they went, they were cleansed
. So this will be a journey.
It's been a long week...
7 appointments in 4 days and I worked 3 of them...I took the day off that I had 3 appointments:
Ultrasound, biopsy #2, CT scan, bone scan, meet and greet with a surgeon for port placement, follow up with Radiation Oncologists and meet and greet consultation with the medical oncologists.
End result.....I have a second tumor. My Dx changed to lobular carcinoma. My reports are confusing and conflicting. These people are not working as a team, and they are asking me to do things out of order according to my primary care office.
So, I fly to Seattle on Thursday to consult individually with an Oncology team at Virginia Mason. (Their surgical Oncology nurse agreed that my reports are confusing and conflicting.) And I have to have surgery and reconstruction in Seattle anyway.
This week will be a whirlwind, too. I fly to Seattle on Thursday, back on Friday, and my son heads back to Oregon on Saturday. I am praying to have a solid course of treatment in place by then. ☺
I still am filled with God's peace and I totally trust Him. ❤